Monday, June 15, 2009

Slightly imperfect

Those "slightly imperfect" shirts and bags and jeans at outlet malls are fantastic. You can't really tell that they're screwed up at all.

However, feeling "slightly imperfect" is not so fantastic. You're not so bad, but you're just not good enough. Like when you get rejected from a job - and when you know that 85% of TFA teachers get accepted after their first damn interview. But not you. You are not quite good enough.

I really wanted that one, too.

8 comments:

Just Eat It! said...

I know the feeling. I never thought of it that way, though, with the slightly imperfect clothing.

Don't get yourself down about the job. It's not just you- it's everyone. No one is getting hired these days. I got rejected from four jobs and my sister got rejected from over forty (seriously, this economy is whack).

tears-of-nienna said...

Aw, hon! I am so sorry. That job sounded so great, but if they can't handle your awesomeness then they clearly do not deserve you.

Cammy said...

I'm so sorry Lisa, but please, please don't interpret this to mean you weren't "good enough" for TFA. I heard they were absolutely avalanched with applications this year due to the sucky economy, and I think that when it comes down to the wire, decisions like this can come down to the whim of someone when there are many outstanding applicants.

I know this is cliche, but this is a good chance to practice seeing new opportunities when one door closes, now you will do something (even if you don't know what it is yet) that you wouldn't have had the chance to do otherwise.

Still, I know rejections burn, no matter how rational we try to be. Hang in there, take care and treat yourself kindly.

ola said...

I am sorry Lisa.
And I think that for me/someone recovering from ed every little non-success can be pretence or ocassion for lowering selfesteem and feeling imperfect.
I am trying to recover from my tiresome perfectionism and I think every rejection or changed plan moved me way forward, really. Although first I felt pretty low as well. But I am sure that wherever you will teach you will do it with passion and heart. Your new job is waiting somewhere already, looking forward to you:)

lisalisa said...

I'm so sorry you didn't get the job! Sounds like the interviewer/decision maker was a big douche who couldn't see how incredibly awesome and wonderful you are! Oh well, their loss...

Kristina said...

So sorry to hear that you didn't land the job, but something else will work out for you. It doesn't help how you feel right now, I know, but I hope that you will have faith in yourself.

Sarah said...

My ex roommate has applied twice for TFA and gotten rejected twice. She is wonderful with kids and has held many other jobs relating to working with kids. She is the director of a summer camp for kids with disabilities, for crying out loud!! It makes no sense to me how they pick the people that they do but don't take this as an indicator of your potential OR aptitude. Remember what your Honors College professor said? You have many things to offer the world. It is really TFA's loss.

I'm so sorry.

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