Sunday, October 12, 2008

Aaack

In two weeks I am presenting a paper at the Social Science History Association's conference. On the plus side, I get to go to Miami. On the minus side, holy shit there is so much that could go wrong with this. I don't know how I'm going to get from the airport to the hotel. The hotel is two blocks away from where the conference is, so I should be okay there. My panel session is over at noon, but my flight back to Cincinnati doesn't leave until 8 PM. And then it makes a layover somewhere in the Carolinas, meaning I will be back in Ohio on Monday. At which point I need to drive back to OU for a class at 1 PM.

The very next day, I take the GRE. I signed up for the goddamn thing back when I thought I might apply to a couple of programs, just to see if I could get funding. That's not happening.

Okay. Realistically, I know my presentation isn't a big deal. I'll go, I'll stand up there and talk for fifteen minutes, click through some slides, and garble some answers to whatever questions the other discussants have. If I can avoid fainting or peeing myself, I suppose that's good enough. Even if I blow it big time, the chances of it affecting my future are slim. I have nothing to be afraid of. And yet I'm scared pantsless.

2 comments:

licketysplit said...

scary, but exciting! what are you presenting on?

Lisa said...

Patterns in women's crimes during the Civil War. There's a criminological theory that as more women work, more women commit property crimes, and we tested that using historical data. We found that during the Civil War both employment and property crimes increased, but they weren't the kind of "white collar" jobs or crimes that were the basis of the theory.

Hope your eyes didn't glaze over ...