Sunday, May 17, 2009


Tomorrow I will be picking up printed copies of my thesis from Kinko's. I'll take those copies to the three professors who are doing my mock review. And then I will, in effect, be done with college.

And I don't know what to do with myself. Thankfully my paid-work boss isn't terribly demanding, because my motivation has gone out the window. I finally don't have to worry about at least a few of the things I've been worried about (don't worry, there are still plenty). But there's a bit of a psychic void, I suppose.

I kind of feel a little ... depressed? It seems silly, but this is the same kind of blankness that I associate with depression. It's a lack of motivation to start anything.

I'm sure this is temporary. I just need to shake it off.


Kristina said...

Congrats on finishing up the thesis!
And I absolutely know what you mean about that sudden emptiness. How to fill one's thoughts? Into what do I now pour all of my energy and anxiety?
This may sound trite, but I do hope that you will treat yourself to something (or a few things) fun to celebrate this accomplishment.

burpandslurp said...

oh, everyone goes through this feeling once they're done with college. It's ok to feel a bit apprehensive about the future. but I do hope you'll find your path in life and fulfill your goals with passion! be're in a new chapter in your life! :-)

Harriet said...

Congratulations! I also know what you mean about the sudden emptiness. I'm at a different stage of my life - my kids are leaving for college. The job I've been doing for the last 19 years is just about over - being a full time mom.

It's hard to do anything so intensely and then have it be over. Hopefully you'll find something else in the near future and things will become exciting and new again.

Gaining Back My Life said...

It's normal to feel the 'anti-climax' of completing a huge project. And completing school - well, that is a tremendous accomplishment.

Congrats to you, I hope the reviews are insightful.

Lissy said...

yay to the thesis!

i am in the middle of such a depression. no motivation. it seems like a big deal to just walk down to the water fountain.

have you thought about what you'd like to do? that's what i'm trying to figure out. it's scarey but also kind of fun.


Tiptoe said...

Congrats on finishing the thesis. There's always a bit of relief, but then like the "what now?" question. Soon enough, another project will come along. For now, enjoy the freedom of not having to worry about the thesis.

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