Option #1: Restrict my eating, exercise daily, and be thin.
Option #2: Eat what I want, exercise most days, and be ... smooshy.
If you've never had an eating disorder, the choice seems obvious. If you are all-too familiar with the unrelenting downpour of crazy that is an eating disorder, you probably have an inkling of what's happening in my head.
I miss my boyfriend. It's not related to the above at all, it's just another thing.