Friday, March 13, 2009

Another day

Another day, another pair of pants that don't fit. And it's not like these were an obscenely tiny size, either.

I wish this didn't bother me so much.

I just feel like everyone who told me I wouldn' t gain too much weight - Dr. M, my nutritionist, my doc - I feel like they all lied to me. Eating normally, eating like everyone else DID make me gain weight.

Apparently my options are these: restrict my eating and have a body that doesn't give me fits, or eat "normally" and have love handles, muffin-tops, you name it.

And I know I am the ONLY one who gives a damn. My family doesn't, Jim doesn't, my friends don't. They don't think I've "let myself go."

I want to believe them. I'm trying to believe them.


4 comments:

Gaining Back My Life said...

Believing others when the ed continues to lie to you is extremely difficult.

p.s. word ver. is 'sonsusi' - sounds like a sushi dish!

MelissaS said...

RIGHT there with you. my body loves to grow. i don't think i'm a naturally thin person.

i always wonder -- no one else cares, why do i? but i do.

are you open to saying what size you are when you say you're not particularly small?

also, there is an adjustment period. your metabolism probably doesn't know what to do after years of starving. when i stopped throwing up i gained tons of weight, but my body adjusted, and i got down to a healthy slim-ish weight.

Tiger said...

It's hard, isn't it?

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