From a journal entry dated October 7, 2005 (I'd been in college for about a month):
I don't know what to do. I weigh 106 pounds - close to the lowest I've ever been. I'm so bony that I can't sit in an unpadded chair for more than 20 minutes. I have no energy. I feel fuzzy - I space out a lot. I feel like I can't hold a conversation. Things don't seem as funny as they used to. I'm worrying Mom and I'm starting to scare myself. Every time I think about it, I just feel like it's too much trouble; I don't want to deal with it. I don't know what to do.
*Note to self - your mind and body work better when you feed them.